Big News! :)

Hiiiiiiii :D

I am so happy and excited to share some big news with you! As of Saturday January 19, 2013, I became an engaged lady. I feel happy, excited and so very thankful. I just wanted to quickly update you on that since it's just insane to me still to think that this is real. As in I am getting married!!!! :O :D

It's a definite mix of emotions I NEVER thought I'd have and I am just thankful to the Lord for allowing me to meet such an amazing guy, friend, and future husband. Here are some pics that were taken during the whole thing! The story? That will be coming up soon! :) 

He had a beautiful Set up! :)

At a dear friends dock near a lake :)

So pretty! :)

One of the books he used during the event. 

Custom made! :)

My reaction after finding out people were actually present!!! :P

For now, I hope you enjoy the pictures! :) 

Thanks for being part of this by reading this! :) Coming up....the story. :)

Stay tuned! 

Conversations 'til 7am!

Hello there! :) I am awake! I cannot believe I am because I fell asleep at 7am this morning and had to get up at 8:30am because I was meeting up with a great friend of mine for breakfast! Cancel? Heck no! :P I had not seen this girl in forever so, no. It was great btw. :) 

This Girl down below and I fell under the spell of not sleeping and staying up and about ALL night. 

Last night was great! Not only because I got to hang out with my roommate and friend, but because our conversation was amazing. It was just one of those conversations where things just flow and you try to say everything that you've had in mind about the subject that it's just impossible to stop! Especially when the other person has been thinking about the same thing and is as passionate about the conversation as you are! I would loooove love to share with you sometime what it was about and how our minds just kept going at it. I mean, we started at 3am until 7am when my eyes suddenly got insanely heavy! I just wanted to share how very blessed I am to have people in my life I can talk to and be myself with. It is pretty freeing and real because it's friends like these that you can count on and simply encourage to continue despite anything that is going on in life. Because....it's not like life is perfect right? Or that WE are perfect right? Yet when we seem to speak to people we tend to say everything is fine, we tend to talk about the success in such and such, or how we accomplished X thing, and how happy "such" thing makes us, etc. We also do that in church right? Attend, be civil, say hello here and there, try to fellowship some and say what? OH! That everything thank the Lord is fine *smile*, and go to the next person or just go on to lunch or whatever is next. People say church is like a hospital right? For the broken and the needy. Do we think that the broken and needy at times are just the new comers who might not know the Lord or that one person we think is in some serious mess? How about me? Me? Mmmmm.....sometimes, but right now things are good, relationship with the Lord? beautiful! Not really broken today, nothing messy going on today. "Everything is fine." 

More on that, some other time I can gather my thoughts better and tell you more. Our conclusion though, I will say it because it's a truth that we should ask the Lord consistently to live by, and that is the Gospel. The Gospel is what breaks it down for us and anyone. It's what we should hold on tight to every day, at all times. :) I encourage you to do that and ask the Lord to reveal even the most hidden, unknown things in your life that might be interfering with your relationship with the Lord. Because truth is, we can't see it all and spot everything that is wrong in our lives. Truth is, we need Him...always. 

The day He told me to be still...

Hello there! :) 

So I am sick! Caught a cold from the million people I've come in contact with who have happened to have a cold OR the flu! Geesh! It' everywhere! But I am super thankful I haven't started working yet so I could stay home, sleep, rest, and sleep. :) The weather hasn't been more perfect here these days for doing that exact thing: sleep. So I have been blessed. :) Good times I'm sure I will miss at some point. 

But today I wanted to share with you something that the Lord literally showed me and nudged me with.  

I can call this a memorable moment because it made me cry and made me not want to acknowledge what was right in the moment. Something just bothered me so bad, that I let it get to me and I became very mad about it. I let my mind unravel and develop the worst thoughts of what I saw. Have you ever done that? Not only judge someone, but turn what you have judged into something exaggerated? Anyways, I did not know what to do! I wanted to just tell everyone how horrible this situation was and have someone just agree with me and lend me a hand on how I felt. But then again, I knew that's not what I needed exactly, but I still went ahead and spilled the beans shared the story with my boyfriend...hoping to hear an empathetic and comforting answer.

 All I got was: Beverly, just pray about it. 

I honestly wanted a little more than that, so I continued my rant, adding a little more details to make it sound intense and dramatic...got the same answer: 

Beverly, have you prayed about it? Just pray about it. Will you do that? 

Me: -_-........fine. (Conversation ended)

At this time, not only anger was flowing but tears, sadness, and more unraveled thoughts were too. So all I did was crawl into bed and start praying anything of that situation I had in mind to the Lord. I told Him I did not understand what was going on, a ton of "why's", a couple of "I'm trying's", and "what do you want me to do's". Teary eyed, I got my "she reads truth"plan and saw what the passage of the day was. Just so you know, I don't just open my Bible for my devotionals randomly to see if there's any passage that applies directly to a situation in my life every time there is something going on, but I do believe that the Lord in his sovereignty and love saved this passage and devo for me that day at that exact time. It was Exodus 14:14: The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still. 

I went: Nah, this can't be it...so I read the whole chapter to get a little more of the context of the verse. Some context I got. My heart sank, I did not know what to say. I was left speechless after seeing it so clearly. Israel had just gotten out of Egypt. In this chapter Pharaoh decides to come for the Israelites and

bring them back to Egypt. The Israelites see them coming in their fancy chariots, and what do they do? 

v. 11 They said to Moses, "Was it because there were no graves in Egypt that you brought us to the desert to die? What have you done to us by bringing us out of Egypt?...(sarcasm much?)

v. 12b "It would have been better for us to serve the Egyptians than to die in the desert!"

Oh they did not go there! (you might say), but oh, yes they did. And so did I. So do I. As much as we can say how stubborn and silly the Israelites were, that's when the more I realize I am just like them....in some aspects? No, every single one. 

The devotional content said something that made me think of my puzzle (life): "The Israelites were terrified. As my pastor points out, they hadn't seen the movie. they didn't know what was coming. And in the Moses moments of our own lives- when we are asked to believe what we cannot see, to walk in a way that seems beyond impossible- we don't know either. The Israelites' doubt and forgetfulness did not disqualify them from God's redemption and promise. Neither did their past sin- even their future sin!- keep them from God's rescue. God wrote the story. They had only to walk in it." 

How true is that??? This chapter of Scripture just hit the nail for me after seeing such a Sovereign God who knew what was going to happen and was in control of every single event of the story, a God who gains glory in every single aspect of everything, a loving God, a powerful God to part the sea in two, a patient God to encourage his people despite the words, a caring and detailed God who provided a pillar of cloud to protect and provide light, and a God who kept his word through it all. I don't know what my puzzle looks like either, just like Israel didn't know squat about their story, but if the Lord was manifested and glorified through their story, He can do the same with mine and yours. That moment just opened my eyes and the Word of God humbled me. I felt thankful and encouraged to actually trust in Him and be still. Being still made me realize that I cannot do anything in my own strength, "wisdom", "discernment", or power. I was able to realize, that actually, I am not in control of the situation I presented to Him. Therefore, I was still. And oooh, how have I already seen the Lord's molding and action as the days have gone by. 

I will always remember this night I am talking about. All I can say and testify is that God listens, and He definitely answers. As you recall, at the beginning of this whole story I wanted an empathetic shoulder, and someone who could say what I wanted to listen. Well, the Lord had something better and much more loving than what I was expecting to be loving such as: "I'm sorry Beverly, daughter of mine, how dare...." "Here, let me make this go away for you." 

His Word is potent, peeps. 

I encourage you to dig into his word and to examine your life and see if there are any areas in which your strength and self control are taking over, and maybe you are needing to be still and see what HE has to do in those areas of your life...not you. Maybe you're like me, seeking to hear what you want to hear. I challenge you to seek the opposite, because sometimes what we want to hear is not the best for us. Sometimes we actually do need some sense kicked into us :) 

Thank you for reading this. I know it got long but it is definitely something that was in my heart to share with you. 

Until next time! :)

HAPPY....new....year! :)

I can still say happy new year right!??? lol It doesn't have to be Jan 1st to say it! Although it would have been ideal to do so. 

HIIII! :) 

Long time no see! I have been gone for a while because my computer has not been with me lately. It has been blessing another soul....(kevin) haha. But I have it for today! :) 

I hope that you had a great Christmas and New year! Hope that the resolutions are still marching forward! :) The new year has definitely started and flown for me already! I mean, come on, we are in the middle of the the first month already! I think it's funny how business is, as soon as December is gone, Valentine's decorations and things start popping up! Soon enough it'll be Easter and so on with the speed of time! Such is life though. 

I wanted to do a little recap on how my new years get-together was for me and show you a little of what went on. :) So hang in there and bear with me because here I go:

Made a balloon drop people! :)

So this balloon drop was intense! A few days before the 31st, I was sitting on my couch just thinking. I suddenly looked up and the idea came to mind! I had never heard or had ever seen one of these before. There I was, trying to figure the whole thing out, how it was going to hang, what I should use to sustain the balloons, etc. Then I decide to tell Kevin and ask for ideas for my brilliant and awesome "original" idea! 

His response: Baby, I'm sure there have been several people who have done this before. Look it up on pinterest and I'm sure it'll be on there. 

(world came crumbling down...) exaggerated much? Yes. 

Well, I thought it was funny because according to myself I thought this was original, and for some reason thought no one else in this world had done it before. ha! So much for that. But I still count it as an original self idea and it turned out to be fun which is what counts. :) 

People were ready to bring it down!

And there is went! :) 

There was some dancin'

And some of this! :)

With my K!

And with some of the ladies :)

Overall, it was a great time. So then on the 1st we decided to go to Thomas Jefferson's house in Charlottesville. It's called Monticello. Beautiful from the outside and the inside! Love that house! And your cool fact of the day (which you might already know) is that this is the house our nickels have imprinted!  :) That man was a genius. 

Now, I am excited to start my real job and see how this whole commuting situation works for me. If I hadn't mentioned it, my job will be 45 minutes away. A bit scary for the days I'm dead and have to drive back but good because I know friends who live in the area and can totally stay there if there was such a situation. Nurse Beverly.....:) Hi! That's me! :)

I start on January 28th so it's definitely coming. The "good life" is coming to its end. I will miss my little Jacob dearly, but will be seeing him around. But I am ready to embrace this new journey of the nursing world. :) Comfy scrubs, tennis shoes....come on! Doesn't it make you want to be a nurse?? :) :P

I also wanted to quickly tell you that I have joined this bible reading plan that has a blog and is on instagram! :) Very neat! It is called "She reads truth" and if you click here, you can take a look at it and see more of what I am talking about. It is awesome! I would encourage you to join if you haven't already! You can do it anywhere you have internet! :) I'll have to tell you tomorrow how the Lord used one of the passages from this plan to teach me a lesson and show me love through it too. 

But anyways, I hope you are having a great start of your week and hope you have a good rest of it! :)